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Kaleidescopic Unpredictability?
December 11, 2006
Kaleidescopic ~ Canon 30d
Isn't all of life an unpredictable kaleidoscope of swirling colors? A twisting rainbow-ring of mystery-hues, tumbling in spectacular patterns of delicious, unreproducible jumbles? Where these cacophonous colors will ultimately collide and fall, I surely do not know. Only time... delicious, pretentious, mysterious, coquettish time, really knows. It's only in retrospect one can see her inspiring, heart-breaking dance set to maddening asymmetrical rhythms. Lady time, intertwined in a seductive dance with chance... waltzing in circles of confusion and box-stepping around life's glaring footlight's aglow. Fickle-fast, bumbly-mumbly, tardy-tedium-torturing, wonderfully wild and beautiful... TIME only knows.
These jumbly bumbly fun words, which I wrote a few months ago, felt almost prophetic to me when I read them the other evening. I was waltzing on the rim of a fantastic happiness at the time I typed them. Funny thing is, subconsciously I think I knew what was on the horizon when they spilled out of me ~ sudden, drastic, gut-wrenching changes. We innately know certain things, but don't want to know them (if you know what I mean). It happened twice ~ this knowing but refusing to know ~ twice in less than 6 weeks. Something tells me there is a lesson there. Lady time can tell quite a few things, but she's not the only one who holds the keys. My intuition is a more of a finely-honed instrument of magic than I'm usually willing to admit.
We do this to ourselves. We steal our magic away... practicing a sort of star-veiling, self-inflicted sorcery.
Is everything an accident? Can we dig deep within ourselves and know more than we think we know? The answer is "yes"... especially if we're willing to hear the answers we don't really want to know.
(PS ~ I'm STILL happy... not to worry!)
Posted by vincent at December 11, 2006 04:42 PM